Monday, 8 October 2012

Rest In Peace Opah

To Allah belongs what He takes and to Him belongs what He gives. There is a set time by Him for everything. 

I thought I was calm.

I thought I was strong.

I even thought that I have a cold heart when I seemed to be unaffected over the news that my grandma was admitted to the hospital.

I guess I was in denial. 

Just like I was, when my grandfather passed away 17 years ago. 

But I can't even say my goodbye properly. My last kiss on my grandma's cold cheek was accompanied by a big lump in my throat and tears that threatened to fall but I held it off. I wished to linger but I didn't. I didn't trust myself to stay strong.

Just moments after we drove off from the graveyard, the waterworks were turned on. I sobbed uncontrollably all through the journey back home as I was remembering my childhood memories with her and of my late grandfather. Remembering how I missed her cooking. The way she used to nag at us. How grandpa used to ask her cook chicken heart day-in, day-out for me when I experienced a number of fainting spells when I was in college.

I told Raimie earlier that I now have no grandparents left.

All her living children came. So did her grandchildren and great grandchildren. Some of us made it in time, some of us didn't. But we all made effort to be there when she was lowered down to earth. She was loved.

She had a full life, all 93 years of it (88 officially though).

My beloved Opah, may she rest in peace and be amongst the good and pious.

32 comments:

  1. Huh!!! I am shocked that she has passed away. I thought she was recovering. Oh dear, it is such a sad day for you and your family. I can understand your feelings and no words can describe your sadness. We all have to go through this parting moments and nobody likes it. Well, we cherish and be thankful to the demised loved ones for all the love and happy moments shared. In heavens, we will meet them again.

    I send my deepest condolence and heartfelt sympathy to you and family.

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    1. Thanks TM!

      I was in shock. It wasn't only me but a few of us were like, it's Opah. Opah always managed to rally through. She was one strong lady, after all.

      But I guess this is her time. Time to let go.

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  2. 93!!! Gee! So sorry to hear the sad news - my heartfelt sympathies to you and your family. I am sure she certainly lived a life that was full of joy and blessings. May she rest in peace.

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    1. Yes, 93. :)

      She lived.

      And now, for us to move on.

      Thanks STP. ^^

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  3. Lina, I'm sorry to hear that. My deepest condolence to you and your family.

    Take care.

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  4. sorry for your loss.

    It's good to cry it out. Dont simpan in the heart

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    1. Yup. ^^

      No regrets. She had a good life. She had her loved ones around her before passing on. She managed to see all her children. She passed away after one of her sons reached the hospital to see her one last time.

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  5. deep condolences to u kak lina.
    and i feel u, my 82yo uwan is also admitted since last week.
    the thought of loosing her is just.... unbearable.
    :(
    but no one lives forever.
    Al Fatihah to your opah.
    stay strong and go run.

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    1. Thanks nannoor.

      Hope your uwan gets better soon!

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  6. this is such a shock, we thought she's recovering after out of ICU and changed to normal ward.. how sad to hear the news..

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    1. my deepest condolence to you and your family on the loss of your opah..

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    2. she is on her way into the land of happiness and meeting with her loved ones in another dimension.. she would be happy seeing over you up there..

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    3. Thanks SK.

      She moved on and now time for us to continue living. ^^

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  7. takziah and stay strong.
    i don't have any grandparents left too :(

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    1. Thanks Doc.

      Cucu yatim (eh, is there such a word?) dah kita kan... huhuhu

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  8. My deepest condolence to you and your family.

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  9. Sorry to hear that, Lina. My deepest condolences to you and your family.

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  10. My deepest condolences to you and your family. Stay strong Lina. *hugs

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  11. Innalillah wa inna ilahi rojiun n salam takziah penuh terharu d atas pemergian Allahyarhamah Opah tercinta kak Lina... Moga roh beliau dicucuri rahmatNYA dan ditempatkan d kalangan golongan beriman n mujahadah... Al-fatihah... Her sweet memories will always be close in your mind n heart...

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  12. Do you know this poem? It cuts across religious borders:

    Do not stand at my grave and weep,
    I am not there; I do not sleep.
    I am a thousand winds that blow,
    I am the diamond glints on snow,
    I am the sun on ripened grain,
    I am the gentle autumn rain.
    When you awaken in the morning’s hush
    I am the swift uplifting rush
    Of quiet birds in circling flight.
    I am the soft star-shine at night.
    Do not stand at my grave and cry,
    I am not there; I did not die.

    It was written by a woman called Mary Elizabeth Frye.

    I'm thinking of you, jungle woman! I will light incense for your Opah at Senso-ji.

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    1. oh dear... Fresh tears welling up. That's a beautiful poem.
      Thanks for sharing.
      Err... No incense burning necessary but appreciate the thought :-)

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  13. lina, very sorry to hear that. May her rest in peace.

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  14. take care and sorry to hear that.

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